I spoke to the transplant center this morning after having my labs drawn on Monday. My MELD is still elevated. So as of now, I am #2 on the B blood list. The person at #1 is a liver/kidney dual transplant. I will find out tomorrow if I continue to stay in South Dakota, or head to Wisconsin to wait and prep for transplant so when the call comes saying they have an organ, I will be ready to go.
It is good news, in that I will be getting a new liver so that maybe I can feel better after recovery. On the other hand, someone has to die for me to live. And I have to live with their spare parts in me. How do I really feel about that? I've kind of been grappling with it all day, and it's brought me to tears a couple times. Then I feel positive that I won't have to feel lousy like today forever. All while I've been trying to clean, sort, and pack to move. I can only do so much before needing to rest again. I hope I sleep tonight, and don't lay awake thinking. I hate that.
So, until tomorrow after the transplant committee meets and I get my answer, I will pack a few more boxes. Yuck.
Lamb Ragu
5 days ago
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